Forgive Me!!! 8-30-11


This year we have lost four people who work for us, helping my two guy's to bed at night so we all can get some rest. My hubby put's 12 to 14 hour's in working a day to keep the wolf away. How he does it I dont know.
Today the fourth one quit...better job better pay. It really hurt's to see so many people come and go in their live's.My oldest son Dustin cried...wow what does a mom do but cry too. Darryn is numb. This past July one of the home health aide's dropped him out of his hoyer lift & he hit his head on the bar's...he was rushed to the emergency room, sent in for a CT scan and from the Grace of God he was okay. But it really has messed with his mental...it has made him very aware of his fragile state. I dont tell to many people just how fragile they are and for year's I was the main care giver, now the three grandchildren have really taken alot of my time and I have needed more help. I am really sad tonight as I write this post...Forgive Me!!!!
I have to have faith and know there is a greater plan after this life....but some day's are much harder than other's.
My little children are all adult's now...oh and so much heartache, I had no idea what was in store...probably a blessing in disguise.
As a mom I want to fix everthing, but I cant.
I can only imagine how our Father in Heaven feel's about us...the sorrow and heartache is way beyond what I can even comprehend.
Advice from my mother in law would be,this too shall pass.
God bless.

14 comments:

  1. Don't beat yourself up! Life happens and we have such little control over it! I will pray for your family. I have a difficult situation at work so I know the stress work can bring! Have faith and hang in there! Somehow we get so bogged down we forget to look up! God loves you! Smile and know you are well loved. Anne

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  2. Hi Debbie, I'm so sorry you lost your helpers, I hope that you will be able to find someone else that can help you with your two son's care. Some day's seem like they are so hard but are actually a test to see how much we are really capable of. You are a very strong person, you have come this far and through all of it you have stayed loving , compassionate, forgiving,loyal, understanding and you have done what you had to, to keep your family going. Your mother in law was right, this to WILL pass and from it you will have learned more than most people could learn in a life time. I know your sad and your heart is hurting but it will get better, no matter how bad things seem now, things will get better. my brother once told me many years ago...you have to take 3 steps forward and if you get knocked back two steps, you take 3 more steps forward until you reach your final destination. No one person can fix everything, if that were true then my family would be as beautiful as yours...I'm sending you hugs and love and prayers to you for a better day tomorrow...goodnight friend, Jennifer

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  3. Sometimes we wonder how on Earth we are supposed to go on when life keeps throwing obstacles in our path, but we just have to go around those obstacles, and manage to muddle through it all. Keep your chin up sweetie! You have a great attitude, and you must be a strong person to do everything that you do, and accept life's blessings along the way.

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  4. Oh my dear friend, I am sending love and prayers your way and a GINORMOUS HUG! I pray that you will get someone to help that will STAY! We know that we can't fix everything but that doesn't keep us from trying! Have a blessed and hopefully trouble free day!

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  5. I understand how it is. Mom's do want to fix everything and we just can't do that. Not all things are fixable, sad to say.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you all!

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  6. It's hard to keep help when you need it and the older we get, the more we need help, it seems. I hope you can find some caring (strong) people, that need a job. I know you have a lot on your plate and so does HE, something will come along, to help you. I am sorry you are so down. {{{HUGS}}}

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  7. Have you seen this little story about how God chooses special moms? I don't know who wrote this but it helps me when things seem like too much.

    http://cottagestateofmind.blogspot.com/2010/01/how-god-chooses-special-mothers.html

    Hope you find some good help soon. You've had to take on so much!

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  8. Just hang in there, you are not alone and somehow we will all make it, even though it does not seem possible at this moment. I have been really struggling also, as my business has been neal and I have no savings and it is still a couple of months before I get my small SS check. I love you, your family loves you, and most of all God loves ya. Be strong. Richard at my Old Historic House.

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  9. Oh I can just imagine your pain! You take two steps forward, then something comes along and knock you back again. Hang in there things will change soon. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Remember, you are not alone and loved by sooo many friends! Hugs!

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  10. mom sorry to hear that you lost another person to help you, I am working hard on getting my kids back to losen the burden that I put on you not meaning they are burdens but it is alot to take on. I know that you and Dad love me or you wouldnt of taken the extra load I am very blessed to have parents like you two I hope I can be the mom you have been to me.Thank you mom Please cheer up I dont like my mamma down. I love you!!!!!

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  11. First time to your blog so am just looking through and don't really know your story. I am, however, sending up a prayer as I write: that God will give you the help you need, give you strength and rest and be close to you as you go through these trials.

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  12. I know one thing in my life I was selected to be/do. I was chosen by God to be my son's mother. He is autistic & bipolar. For every heartache, I'm delivered a smile. For every useless fact, I'm given a suggestion with sense. For every tear, there is a giggle. He is 24 today and on his own albiet with a watchful friend for a landlord. He is doing better than anticipated and still has much to learn. Special moms are chosen for special children. My heart go out to you, my prayers go up and my friendship extended. Hugs. Tammy

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  13. My heart aches for you! Life is so very hard sometimes!

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  14. It is so hard to understand sometimes as we go through difficult trials why a loving God would let us do it, but we have to trust His promise that He works all things together for good for those who are the called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28). It may be to strengthen our faith and dependence on Him, to make us more like Him as we identify with His suffering on the cross, and/or to give us greater compassion and experience to help counsel others going through similar trials. I just said a prayer for you for comfort, uplifting, strength in Him, and the peace that passes all understanding. Thanks for joining Saved by Grace (http://savedbygracebiblestudy.blogspot.com/), and may God bless you!

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