So Empty and alone!!!All I have seen to day is one dove, they usually come in two( a pair). Today I had my husband serverd divorce paper's, as his request( to many scattered feather's.How do I go on? With so much to do!!!I cant stop thinking about 30 year's, so much pain so much fear,so much to lose!!!!!!!!!!!!! How crazy is that?
If only I had fairy dust to sprinkle all over and make it all better. I am a lost soul, I do not know where I belong anymore. Maybe some day I will post a happy post(all week long) but for now I am so sad and alone. Night time is the very worst for me.


  1. I am praying for you and your family. I'm so sorry.

  2. Stay strong, you will survive and be better for it.

    Hugs RosieP x

  3. Please remember that you have had the strength to realize that enough is enough and that even though it was 30 years, the best is yet to come It's what you do now with what you have now which will provide a peace of mind and strength.
    Be always in stitches.

  4. I am so sorry!! Perhaps this mught be an end to your torment??? I do hope you soon find the peace and happiness you deserve.

  5. Sweet Debbie,I am so sorry you have to deal with this.You are a beautiful soul and you will rise again.You will stand TALL and PROUD.Dont let anyone take away your inner strength..Sometimes we need to regroup and this regrouping will make you more focused.Stay STRONG and you are not alone.Your faith is right beside you,holding you,and so am I.Your friend,Cat

    The Armful by Robert Frost

    For every parcel I stoop down to seize
    I lose some other off
    my arms and knees,
    And the whole pile is slipping, bottles, buns,
    Extremes too hard to comprehend at once
    Yet nothing I should care to leave
    With all I have to hold with hand and mind
    And heart, if need be,
    I will do my best
    To keep their building balanced at my breast.
    I crouch down to prevent them as they fall;
    Then sit down in the middle of them all.
    I had to drop the armful in the road
    And try to stack them in a better load.

  6. There is always hope. Don't give up on yourself. Find a doctor who will listen. Demand help. There is a person whom I was ready to cut out of my life. The condition was different but the effect was the same. With that ultimatum this person was able to find help and the right medication took away all the depression, anxiety and outbursts.

    I never really thought people could change but medical issues can lead people to be other than their bueatiful selves. And they can be overcome.

    Take care of YOU. You are right, you have so much to take care of but you have to be the top priority! Rescue the beautiful you we all know is there, then you can take care of the rest.

  7. Awwww Debs,
    Here is some fairy dust and some Pixie dust as well. It's normal to feel that way. New solutions are scary- unknown territory which is why most just put up with old problems. It is important to just be present in your pain and let it take it's natural course. It is a process, not unlike a death and even though it may feel excruciating, focus on laying in the Lord's lap and resting a while and trusting He will take care of you just as he always has. Accept the process, the less you fight it or try to stuff it, the smoother your transition will be. Just accept it, and start to try and get excited about all of the unseen possibilities that will now open up for you! Acceptance and trust. That's the fairy dust you need.
    You WILL get through this!
    Sparkly Hugs,
    Tobi and the Pixies!

  8. Ask the Angels to help & they'll bring you the strength to take each day as it comes.

  9. Loss, whether thru divorce or anything else, is always difficult. Please know that you will get thru this and come out stronger on the other side.

    Remember: "A window never closes, but where another door opens".



  10. Deb, ((hugs)) and prayers. Remember, God's mercies are new every morning. You can only live one day at a time. Blessings

  11. Hang in there! Let time do what it's so good at.......healing!

  12. You'll be in my prayers, I believe that soon you will have joy in your heart, believe also the love of God is immense feel it every day.
    Big Hugs