Oh gal's keep clear if you dont want to ride on my roller coaster!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Angry is not my favorite feeling!!!!!!!!!!
Stop the anger!!!!!!!!!!
Being beat down is not my favorite feeling!!!!!!!!!It's time for me to fly!!!!!
Time for peace and healing!!!!!!!!!Being a strong woman is my goal!!!!
I wish you all peace!!!!!!!!!!! I really feel so alone alot of the time but I am really working on feeling better. Do you ever feel like no matter what you do it will never be enough for some people, I go on other blog's and really would like to be that person's friend and I leave comment's but they never respond. See I alway's take everything so personal,(I hate that I do that). My marriage has been this way and it kill's me, I so want to be accepted and loved. I have put myself in situation's that I must admit it is all my fault, but leave so hurt and depleted. My dad yelled at me Sunday, I am a 48 year old women that just sit's there and take's it.(WHY) I am going to find out why. I will get better, I am hell bent to get strong and not let myself get hurt. I hope you will remain on my blog and be my friend. I am really getting divorced for real and I am so relieved, so much drama happened this last weekend, I felt so alone, I have taken so much counseling, stay on medication. The only thing I havent done is do something for Debbie, how do you not feel guilty? I really dont know how to do that. I wish I could just be okay!!!! This is my space, my dear friend Kolleen told me to say what I want and feel safe. I know I can on the blog. But this last weekend I posted on facebook I was getting a divorce, hell broke loose from my
husband's family, it was like I had comited the Cardinal sin, it brought me to a feeling that I have tried to avoid,that is probably why I have stayed married to avoid the judging,hurt and back biting. I never fit in that family and my husband has tried to convience me I dont fit in any where, I have bought it for to long.But my dear friend's that have grown up with me have showered me with so much love and support.Okay I will go for the day and try to do something productive. Please forgive my insecurities, I am trying to find a solution.
I live in gorgeous Utah below the Mountain's. I have five beautiful children all with their name starting with the letter D. I also have six wonderful grandchildren...love em all:)
I share a gorgeous home with my hub's and two son's (my hub's built the house we live in.)