PMDD

This is me once a month. Out of control. I have kept track of my post's and it is like clock work, I get angry.
I make bad choice's (Facebook)I break my heart and other's along the destructive path.Then I wonder what have I done?
Then I cry and feel over whelmed.
I need to get off this roller coaster ride.After I had my husband escorted out of the house by the Sheriff, he went to the library to find out what was wrong with his friend(me) We are in agreeance that I have pmdd, we are on a mission to get me well.Please forgive my weakness I really knew something was amiss. I have been to so many doctor's, councelor's and on so many prescriptions, why didnt a doctor or someone listen?  I have often thought how many women suffer from this and turn to alcohol or drug's because someone wont listen to her. If you know of a loved one (female) who is struggling with these symptom's, please tell her and help her. IT HAS BEEN HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will keep you all posted on my progress(hopefully) I am so ready to feel better, enjoy my good life and realize what a good man I do have. He really has suffered watching me go through this,I have fought him thinking he was against me. I am thankful we didnt get divorced, we are still seperated but it will all work out. Please pray for me and my family to get this resolved. I love you all dearly.

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  1. I've been there beautiful Dee...At a younger age though..from 25 till 35,,than I went on medication for 5 years..(WOW..what a huge difference). I was able to go off all my doses (and all at the highest doses possible) slowly and now have been off med's for about 6 years...I learned a lot though while I was on medication...learned how to control the outbursts, learned that it IS normal to not freak out each month, flip out, stress out. I learned that my brain can actually have one 'voice' inside instead of the multitude that was screaming for so many years...

    I told you before, as I've told SO many. My husband lived with me wanting to divorce him (AND) everyone one else knowing it at least ever other month, sometimes every month. He and my family would great breaks from time to time before I would have a explosive outburst.

    I called the cops, my parents, friends, neighbors,. cried out on the internet, and YES, used booze and drugs to control the insanity for a long time.

    Love ya girl.

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  2. Dear Dee,
    I was diagnosed with PMDD last fall by my family Dr. I spent the whole summer dealing with migraines and feeling miserable. I had never heard of PMDD before my doctor offered it as a possible reason for my head pain. She put me on Celexa as a preventative for the headaches. She said it is marketed as an anti anxiety but a side effect is that it keeps your chemicals on an even keel. I immediately (within the first 2 days) was finished with the headaches and have slept better than ever. It doesn't let me get taken over by crazy repetitious negative thoughts either.
    PMDD is real and I pray that you will get the treatment that is right for you. I am pulling for ya girl!!

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  3. I really do hope you get this sorted out soon!!
    Blessings
    xxxx

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  4. Oh sweetie ....My prayers are with you!! I hope you find the perfect combo & get your life back!!
    Love,
    Marilyn
    xxoo

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  5. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  6. Debbie, I'm glad you have found a reason for all your anguish. I will pray that help will come soon. ((hugs))

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  7. Talking always helps.. get it out there girl....glad that you are on the road to feeling better!!! You will be in my prayers!!

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  8. I am sorry for the pain you feel, I wish I could reach through the screen and take it away for you. You are in my prayers...and things will get better.

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  9. Debbie ... I have you on our prayer list at church, and know I have such a special feeling for you .... you are headed in the right direction, my wonderful new friend!
    Now ... put your right hand on your left shoulder ... and your left hand on your right shoulder---you've just given yourself a big hug! When you can hug yourself, my dear, you can go on "hugging" ... I love you, Debbie, praying for you and we will all weather this together!!

    Big Pink Hugs!
    Dee @
    deeslittlepinkie

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  10. I wish you all the best in these times!

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  11. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I hope things will work out better for you - in fact I think they will, the first step is admitting that something is wrong right? And then to seek the necessary steps to overcome that barrier. And you have done both :) <3

    Sarah @http://www.inkandbelle.blogspot.com

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  12. Glad you have finally been diagnosed... now hoping the treatment works. I can recommend alternative therapies, such as acupuncture & herbalism - they've worked wonders for me since the start of my surgical induced menopause. :0)

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  13. All I can say is I understand, I wish you peace.

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  14. Thinking of you and hope you are doing ok!!

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